I ate too much tiramisu today, and my stomach hurts now.
Fuck my life.
Hello, it's andromeda, today I just wanna talk about something that's been on my mind ever since I started posting art on the internet.
This is mostly just me complaining. Sorry for the weird format of this post.
This is mostly just me complaining. Sorry for the weird format of this post.
I have a very silly goal in life: I want to be a recognised artist.
I don't mean like a worldwide-famous, featured-in-fancy-museums, decades-old-legacy kind of artist. No. That's just too much. I just want at least one of my works out there to have some kind of fanbase around it. Even if it's just some niche internet thing, I'm satisfied enough with that.
I don't mean like a worldwide-famous, featured-in-fancy-museums, decades-old-legacy kind of artist. No. That's just too much. I just want at least one of my works out there to have some kind of fanbase around it. Even if it's just some niche internet thing, I'm satisfied enough with that.
I kinda feel shame admiting this kinda thing, makes me feel like an attention-craving insecure bastard. Oh well.
But I feel like there's just a massive wall between me and the first steps to even achieve this goal. It seems no matter what I do, my art doesn't gain any kind of audience.
At first, I thought it was because my art was bad (because back then, it really was). So I figured it would gain some traction once it became better, but when it started to reach an acceptable level, it still underperformed, hell, it started performing worse.
Anything I make just fails miserably. OC art, fanart, tweening, frame-by-frame, sketches, fully rendered, joke, serious, no one wants to see it. I really don't know what it is. I feel like everyone else has something that I don't, and that's keeping me away from my stupid goals.
Maybe my goals are too unrealistic, or maybe my art is still not good enough.
It's not like I make stuff purely for the fame. I genuinely enjoy drawing, but seeing it fail again and again feels like a huge slap in the face.
I don't want to blame people. I know some out there would probably enjoy my work. I'm mainly complaining about the unfair algorithm (or my incompetence) here.
But I feel like there's just a massive wall between me and the first steps to even achieve this goal. It seems no matter what I do, my art doesn't gain any kind of audience.
At first, I thought it was because my art was bad (because back then, it really was). So I figured it would gain some traction once it became better, but when it started to reach an acceptable level, it still underperformed, hell, it started performing worse.
Anything I make just fails miserably. OC art, fanart, tweening, frame-by-frame, sketches, fully rendered, joke, serious, no one wants to see it. I really don't know what it is. I feel like everyone else has something that I don't, and that's keeping me away from my stupid goals.
Maybe my goals are too unrealistic, or maybe my art is still not good enough.
It's not like I make stuff purely for the fame. I genuinely enjoy drawing, but seeing it fail again and again feels like a huge slap in the face.
I don't want to blame people. I know some out there would probably enjoy my work. I'm mainly complaining about the unfair algorithm (or my incompetence) here.
But I don't want to give up. I want to keep creating no matter what. Maybe someday I'll make that ridiculous dream come true. Right now, though, it just feels utterly hopeless.
yes this drawing is meant to be dumb and unserious
